feel lonely

i look at the sea at serasa when i was fisihng
i was alone nad my driver was so damn tired
cuz driving
-.-"
i told him already let me drive
he was like
"wtf"
driver:Noooo.....
me:damn ur no fun
driver like
....
i was jk
so i was sitting and fishing alone
i kept thinking wat did i did wrong
why they used me
is that wat u call a friend
damn i was speechless
i missd my best friends
adele
amy
and
nica
looking at the sea with a wide view
in minutes
one fish hooked at my fishing rod
i was like wth?
so i grab the fishing rod
and
fought the fish
lol i lost
i was like FUCKED!!!!!!!!!
so after i went fishing i went back home and change my cloth
i got an apointment
i went to hospital
i waited
take an x-ray
the doc said
its spreading slowly
i was speechless
so the doc gave me a paper to take the pills
so i took it
after i took the pills
i went to the mall
take my mood up
i went there i was with my team
and that didnt even made my mood up
after that i went home
when i was in the car
i think
and i know i think alot
its just
my life
is it
ruin?
maybe yeah
....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
aiyad

new video shuffle

so tired!!!!

sport's day shuffle meet up

hahaha we didnt shuffle seriosly hahahahahahaa "slap"

sport's day

sport day
sport day was fun
i was there just for awhile
my friends bring me to shuffle so i did n they video me lol
after we shuffle we went to the toilet and andy have a box of fire works i ask him to light up and throw it on a toilet bowl
andy was scared he didnt dare so i did it
i light it up and threw it a the bowl we didnt ran philbert was video clipin
in seconds BOOM! with an eco.....lol
we ran and we went outside we pretend we didnt know anything hahahhaha
i ran away to my car and went back home lols
hahahahahaah well
that it

lalalalla ~

AYAD =)

it doesnt really look emo now, does it? heee =D have fun with life. but dont take it for granted - dont keep thinkin bout that mother fucking slut. just move on, dont make the same mistakes. okays! =) all the best.

lovelove ;
adele.

walk , bus, mall & taxi!! =pp

lol that day was fun .....really fun after school adele n amy bringing me to adele's house
its that far from school its just behind the school when we arrive 2 adele's hostel theres a big dog and it staring at me i was like what the hell r u looking at but i was afraid lols so we went to her house i was like lol cuz her house was like peaceful i thought she had a baby sister lols adele ask her maid to cook some noodles for us but at that time i didnt noe she was asking her maind 2 cook i sit at her bad and saw something on the wall n i think its blood or paint

it was like emo lols and adele is not emo lols so we sit and drink and the juice was like sour ??? it taste bad lol i cant get use 2 it sorry adele =) when the noddles arrive i look at it and i feel im alread full so i force myself to eat it
when we were eat amy and adele keep on giggling lols and after that amy cant eat proply amy eat like a baby she look so cute lols after we ate we change our clothes and adele's mom send us to yayasan adele and amy search green shirt for the wat day think i dont care lol it took half and hour and we saw this nerd guy keep on digging his nose we laugh out loud hahahahahahaha after we went to yayasan we went to the mall and i saw chun, paulson, garay(GAYray) and their friendsthey keep on disturbing me amy and adele told me to run so we run but till they stop fallowing us

i felt thirsty so adele ,amy n me went to west street adele order for cause i dont want to waste her money
so adele order 1 garlic bread for me n 1 for them both i not that hungry im only thirsty i theres 8 piece of them in one platei ate four n the rest i gave to adele n amyso i drank my water and after that i took adele and amy picture
one of the pitcure of adele look like an old women hahahahahahahhaha! =p

after we went west street we walk around the mall we were tired
and we call for a cab we waited like half an hour or 15 min?
when the cab arrive the driver was nice 2 us we suppose 2 pay $10 but he just ask us to pay him$7
so when we arrive at school we went back adele's home n
we were damn tired
so at 5.30 me n adele went home

YourGuy,
Ayad.

adele,amy and nica

my friends
no
my best friend that i could never left them behind
i love them
i care about them
i take care of them
n i will always be with them
like they did it to me

when i dont see them just one day i feel like i havent seen them forever
they just like a family to me
i miss them
i love them
i feel lonely without them
i feel depress with out them
i feel bored without them
and
i miss them alot

they made laugh
they made me smile
they made me happy
and
they made me...
love them =)
as i write this some of u think im gay cause all my best friend are girls
well im not
so this is the end of the post

i think iam goin to boston

i cant sleep

its 3.33
i woke up and had a bad dream
let me share my dreams with u
i was at school
it was first thing in the morning
i walk 2 fi class
and saw her with another guy
i was pissed off
i walk upstairs to the top floor of my school
and i jump
when i landed
i woke up strait away

when i woke up i open the tv and my laptop
after that i was getting bored
i went outside n lay down
i think and think
what should i say 2 her
i noe she was gona dump me
but i have 2 say a good words 2 her
since i cant think that much
i brought my ipod
and listen
my tears fall
i feel emo but im not
people kept on playing with my feelings
first they want 2 be with me
then the next day they dump me
i just dont understand
i feel sick and worst
lots of my friends cheer me up but i cant
moved on? i tried but i cant
i smoke??
not my option i dont smoke
i drink??
i dont im muslim
what can i do to make myself happy again
what should i doo
give me some advice